|—||I just feel that I need to type something. Nothing in-particular but just something. Something that has meaning. Something that won’t get passed up in everyone’s news feed here on this social media. I want to write what is i my mind. I want to express myself. But I can’t, due to the fact that my brain and all of our brain is so uncomprehending and that we are doubtful and we are scared to express ourselves. We are placed into a toxic wasteland about how we must feed our time and ourselves into his social media contradiction. How we are trapped in social media, how we are shy in front of our friends and how we can not confess to the actual facts that are presented to us every single day. We are not freed to express ourselves, if I want to express myself, I can not because of all the un-profound things that are on Facebook, and that a picture of something that I have seen over twenty times just ends up with even more attention than a world crisis. We are dedicated to this social contraption that we do not even notice it. And that we are so empty inside that we want to make ourselves something, anything. Just to be noticed from this extremely barren wasteland of social media and how we are just inanimate on the internet. We can try to be a part of something on the internet, we can try to make a difference, but in reality; we are blackmailed and we are tricked into thinking we are doing good but when we are actually doing an extremely massive amount of evil. We want to have a word said in this crazy expanding time evolution but we can not even make an attempt of saying it because as I said before we are drowned into despair. We are nothing, we are just students going to a school to try and fit in with the rest of the people in the world. There is no meaning to anything and there is always an equal solution to everything. We try and try again, but we get nowhere. You probably won’t even read this, where ever it will end up, but this is society. We dislocate ourselves from our surroundings. Trying to get our mind off of the evil from what is around us. And yes, I am just contributing something this stupidity on Facebook. It is ridiculous of how we are parted from society. THERE. I SAID WHAT I WANT.|
My friends and I are on Skype right now. I’m thinking of all the things going on right now, the crisis in Syria, the whole world in general. I was talking about Katawa Shojo and how emi’s roll was and how it was so heartwarming in the end. It is very interesting. I went on /r/Depression during the Skype call. I was on a post about how some teenager was ranting about how he spent a supposedly “Half-hour” typing a post. He was honestly being a bit of an asshole. Typing something and then ranting about it. So you know what? That guy sucks. But then again, I am ranting about a rant on /r/depression. So that’s a bit Ironic.
|—||Ok, sorry if this is a big insult to some of you but I’m just going to express my opinion. Apparently North Korea “approved” a nuclear strike on the us (according to the news). I’ll just let you know one thing. If this does happen, and if we do get into a war, we will beat the living crap out of them. I am just saying that right now. North Korea is only trying to intimidate us. We have retaliated before in our past with two nuclear bombs and we will most likely do it again. Good lord, it’s going to be just like Pearl Harbor all over again.|
Whenever I go to a gaming convention I want to be up on a stage singing SurpriseButtsecks with a giant picture of Nyan cat in the background while being dressed up as a spy from Team Fortress 2.
|—||So apparently I sleepwalk. yeah… Here’s the story. A long time ago I was attempting an “all nighter” and I ended up falling asleep in my chair around 6:00 am. Note that I fell asleep in my chair. When I woke up I was in my bed. I asked all my family members if they had moved me and they said no. I was considering the fact that I sleepwalked but it was just nothing and I forgot about it. Now here is the scary thing. Last night when i went to bed I put my socks and my pants and socks on a chair not too far from my bed. This morning I didn’t find them there. I remember having a dream where I went into the bathroom with my pants. When I walked into the bathroom they were there. Right where I had dreamt where they were. My socks were not too far from the chair on the floor. I am seriously considering that I sleepwalk now. Possibly I do, but possibly I don’t. But this is the second time I have woken up in a different place, or couldn’t find something. But yeah…. That was a thing.|
If anyone of you were wondering, I just made a SoundCloud. I’ll put some stuff on here very once in a while. ;]
It was a casual mid afternoon. I was in a panic to find my other flip flop so I could go swimming the following hour. I knew it was in my room, but I couldn’t pin-point the exact location of the “Nike” flip flop. I immediately started to think about what is under my cluttered bed. I entered the room, it was very cluttered because I hadn’t cleaned it for quite a while. I was planning on doing that on the weekend. As I entered the room I proceeded to walk around all the aimless things. I kneeled down and I started to crawl under the bed. I had to push basically a tunnel to make my way into the mess. When I was there I started to look around, but about a minute later I realized I forgot my Flash light. I scooted back and went to ask my mom for a flashlight. She told me where there was one and I got it. I went back under my bed to continue to find my other flip flop. I struggled to see, even with the flash light. I tried to move my arms around so I could hold the flashlight and see better. I continued to look as I wiggled and moved objects around and out of my way. Then I came across something I hadn’t seen for over three years. The tracks were ever so delicate, and it’s paint so vibrant and yellow. It was still connected to the platform it was originally placed on when I had received it three years ago. The over case was missing, yes. Yet the thought had still amazed me that I have not seen this object for over three years, and there it was; under my bed in one of the most obvious places. I never had realized I lost it. I grabbed it and started to back out from my bed. I had started to cough really badly when I was under the bed; when I got out from under the coughing subsided. I turned off the flashlight and thudded through the hallway. I was going to kitchen where my mom was. I showed it to her and explained what it was. She said that it was cool that I had found something that I lost so long ago. I replied something that I can’t remember but I went back to cleaning. I placed it on my dresser and went back under the bed. I continued to search for the flip flop. I turned my flashlight back on and continued to look. It was really “mysterious” because I was still thinking about the Tractor I found. As I looked for my flip flop even more, I found yet another item I had lost. It was the over case to the Tractor! I was astonished at what I had found all while looking for a totally opposite thing. I once more got out from under the bed and went to show my mom. She said that it was neat that I had found a set of two things that I wasn’t looking for. She also said, “Sometimes you find things that you aren’t even looking for and have forgotten about!” I replied with a simple “Yep!” I went into my room and assembled them together and continued to look for my flip flop. So here I am now, today on the 5th of March, 2013. I still have the Tractor in my sight, but as for the flip flop? I never found it that day and I had to wear my shoes to go swimming.
I think that Mizuki is having something to with subtraction and pulsars. If you get what I am saying.
(In Mizuki’s Last Chance he has these two dongs named Subtraction and Pulsar.)